Happy Friday!

Well it has been an up and down week. Tuesday was GREAT! Then Wednesday I ended up in bed ALL day (literally). Yesterday I felt like my old self and all I wanted to do was create some new pieces of work (I will post one of my newest on the next post) and I was thrilled to feel normal again. We even went out to Lupe's with Bill!


Today was also a GREAT day! I received a great call from my wonderful Uncle Ken - a GREAT treat!! I also got to spend the entire day with Mama G, Ginger (aka Sneaky), and Brenna! We had a full day and I did VERY well until it was time to go, then I got nauseous and didn't feel well - it was probably the withdrawals kicking in! HAHA



The only interesting things to note are these:

1. On Wed am I weighed 135lb! Then the next day I weighed 144lbs! I am a bit anxious to see the scale tomorrow! My "goal/happy" weight has always been 160lbs so I have some room to play with but I just hope it doesn't happen THIS fast!

2. My incision was numb all day

3. My throat still constantly either tickles or burns (I have to have Cepacol with me at all times )

4. I wake up all night long trying to pull off the "turtleneck" off around my throat only to realize nothing is there

5. I now know exactly the symptoms of my lethargy about to kick in - I sweat, my whole body tingles, and I feel like I have taken a narcotic. I try to lay down when this happens

6. I am a little sad, we were supposed to be in L.A. THIS weekend and I was SO looking forward to seeing my dear friend Tonya (I promise we will plan another trip out - I am dying to meet your darling hubby and baby girl Ava) and finally live out my dream of driving up the coast (of course in a convertible)! ONE DAY SOON!!!! :-)

7. Today the "hormonal" issues kicked in - it caught me off guard. I have pretty much been crying all evening about one thing or another. I heard the song Pocket Full of Sunshine by Natasha Bedingfield on the radio and I listened to the words and it was like someone opened the flood gates (it is now MOMO's theme song - I am going to go download it)! My goal is to let it all out tonight in the privacy of my own home -

YOU ONLY HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THIS PORTION UNTIL THEY GET ME ON MY MEDS AND REGULATED (unfortunately that is another few weeks - sorry - LOVE ME!!)!!


Here is a sample of the words to that song:

Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me. (MADGE!!)
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.

Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A higher place.

Wish that you could, but you ain't gonna own me. (MADGE!)
Do anything you can to control me.

There's a place that I go, But nobody knows.
Where the rivers flow, And I call it home. (all week I have been thinking about my grandparent's place in Montana by the river - my "happy" place)
And there's no more lies.
In the darkness, there's light.
And nobody cries.
There's only butterflies.

The sun is on my side. Take me for a ride.
I smile up to the sky. I know I'll be all right. (AMEN!!)


Just had to share that with ya! :-)



HERE IS A REALLY COOL THING:
My bro-in-law Mike is going to run the Chicago Marathon with a team he is getting together and they are going to put MADGE on the bottom of their shoes to STOMP her out! TAKE THAT MADGE!


WHAT IS NEXT:

MONDAY - I have three doctor's appts, one is to find out the radiation date! I will keep you posted!


I leave you with this from a card I just received from Grammy (love you):

God give you grace and uphold you
In days ahead, in all you do.
God comfort you when you are down
And lift you up to higher ground.

God walk with you, step after step,
In crisis times when you need help.
God hold you close both day and night.
God give you love, God send you light.


BEAUTIFUL WORDS - HOPE THIS HELPS SOMEONE READING THIS AS WELL! Oh gosh.... I think I am gonna cry again! :-)


I won't wait so long for the next post - I guess I do have a lot to type! :-)

I will NEVER be able to put into words how much the prayers, support, meals, hugs, gifts, cards.... etc..... have meant to me. I have never felt so much love in my life and it is very overwhelming! My only hope is that one day if you need me I am RIGHT THERE for you to give you back a little piece of what you have given me! I LOVE YOU ALL (yes...I am crying again)! :-)